(1/13/2007) Coming back.... Here I am again, and it has been a while, to be sure. Of all people,
I think I should know how good it does someone to write.
To write thoughts, feelings, ideas, impressions, whatever.
Yet I can get remarkably disinterested in writing on my own website..
Oh well, here I am, and this is good enough.

I was in Italy over the holidays and it was great.
It really made me feel good to be there, it was like finding
a piece of me that had gotten lost in the midst of the great
American Life with lots of things and little meaning.
Lost under avalanches of exams and presentations
and preparing for defenses and writing the dissertation.
Lost in Depression and Loneliness and Lack of Meaning.
Lost in agonizing personality restructuring ordeals,
and therapy hours and nauseating sameness.
And of course lost among the fight of the egos at the internship site,
and among the poor clients who are supposed to receive help.

Well, I am now feeling more "together", more of me has returned home,
and there is sincere hope for more comebacks.
Yes, I feel better, although not quite completely physically,
yet, which naturally follows along the mental/emotional state.
If you are restructuring and knocking down and rebuilding your self,
your body will definitely "feel" that, which can result in all sort of physical,
though temporary, symptoms.

So, good news. I am more in charge of myself, more clear about myself,
and I love it. Confusion was driving me WILD. Although not everything
has cleared up, and not all doubts have dissolved in a cloud of light,
I feel considerably better about me, my life, my future, my career.
I feel, to make my point, more SERENE about it.
This situation has been aided by the recognition, and acceptance,
of my Italian identity, and what that means to me. Which is a considerable lot.
And, of course, by the decision of spending a month in Italy after I finish with the internship!
And lot more time after that, in the future!

Yes, things are looking good. I will spend the day applying for post-doc positions,
and straightening up my desk, and hoping that the student aid will get here soon...

:)

Then, I am going to see "The Pursuit of Happiness"...
Oh yes.

Here are my wishes for the new year:
I wish a 2007 filled with Love, Peace, and Fulfillment to myself and to All of You.

May Health, Wealth and Happiness be with Us!

Alessandra e Zia Rosa a Botticino: